Life's voyage!

As I glance towards the road's end

A cruise starts on its new voyage!

My hopes spring up quite unbend

A new start follows life in earth's stage?

What would I do when I had no job?

Would people eat or hunger anymore?

Death was the end for all needs and sobs

But never can know what else is in store!

Were those wise who abandoned pleasures?

Or did fun lovers make a good choice?

Did I really believe deeds were measures

That judged my end and gave me no voice?

Life and purpose,still a mystery unrevealed

What I wished for, never gave it twice a thought!

Am I living my chance to get my soul healed?

I stare away,seeking the peace a new chance brought!

Pondering..

Beside my window stands few dripping willows,

Peeping along inside, with half bent pine trees

My eyes wake up to these, lying on cozy pillows

Mornin I say to them and think of egg and cheese!

I was asleep when sky laid white blanket on earth

And now papa sun takes it off and wakes me up!

I smile at life and everything that makes it worth

As I look around, sipping my morning cup!

Am no sculptor, am no artist, but I have it in me

To carve and paint this new day, as I want it to be

Past can drag along, but not lead the future way

Better than yesterday should be each coming day !

Earth's still rolling and my mind's still wandering,

Time's someone never bothered by our life design!

Yet its good to take some off and do some pondering,

You never might know when a good thought shines!

They add colour to life!

Why is it that I always go for that black skirt or black top even when I have atleast 5 of them?? And why do I always think about the lovely whites as angelic no matter how many times I see them in my life? I always liked the Royal look of a black car and the rich feeling of the daily chauffeur-washed white car..these two colours never stop to amaze me in themselves..but they amaze me in yet another way..they become a great background for any portrait that is drawn on them..They do a wonderful job of bringing other colours to life by being their shadow and filling the blank spaces they leave..they are what showed me how a person can be a glorious personality to the world brimming with elegance and pride and yet be that great friend who can bring out the best in us by giving what they can to fill our weak points! These are the friends who make us feel we are the brightest colours of the world..these are the friends who demonstrate the beauty of the other colours by showing the darkest night or the lifeless snowy days in them...but these are the friends who we forget, for their sacrifices and humility..these are the friends to whom we show our pride and mock ..the same wonderful friends who stood behind us to showcase our true colours ! The same wonderful friends who never boasted of their beautiful dark nights or their heavenly white snowy days..but yes..when twilight shines on a lovely green tree, its radiance is unparallelled to any shadow at dusk or any snow flake at night..and yet the rainbow of the fall colours shall not stay forever...and yet the dark nights and passing winter flaunt ur beauty o colours!

യാത്രാമൊഴി

Trying to recreate my words on a topic which I wrote in high school and misplaced!

എനിക്ക് മടങ്ങി പോവാന്‍ നേരമായി. തിരിച്ചു ചെല്ലുമ്പോള്‍ അവരെന്നെ തള്ളിപറയുമോ? അല്ലെങ്കിലും ഞാന്‍ എന്തുപറഞ്ഞാണ് എന്നെ ന്യായീകരിക്കുക?എന്നിലുണ്ടായിരുന്ന ദൈവത്തിന്‍റെ അംശം ഞാന്‍ എന്നേ നഷ്ടപെടുത്തിയിരിക്കുന്നു. എന്‍റെ ആത്മാവിനെ തള്ളിപ്പറഞ്ഞു ഉപേക്ഷിച്ച എന്നെ സ്വര്‍ഗപടിവാതിലില്‍ ആരു കാത്തു നില്ല്ക്കും? എന്നിലെ ജീവന്‍റെ അംശം നശിപ്പിച്ച എന്നെ , തിരികെ ഏല്‍പ്പിക്കാന്‍ നന്മയുടെ ഒരു കണിക പോലും അവശേഷിപ്പിക്കാഞ്ഞ എന്നെ ഇരുകൈയ്യും നീട്ടി സ്വീകരിക്കാന്‍ മാലാഖമാര്‍ പറന്നെത്തുമെന്നു എന്തിന് ഞാന്‍ വ്യാമോഹിച്ചു? ഈ ലോകത്തിന്‍റെ കണ്ണഞ്ചിപ്പിക്കുന്ന സൌന്ദര്യത്തിലേക്ക് എന്നെ പറഞ്ഞയച്ചതെന്തിനു? ഈ സുഖങ്ങള്‍ എനിക്കല്ലായിരുന്നെങ്കില്‍ അങ്ങെന്തിനിവയെ സൃഷ്ടിച്ചു? വെറും കളിമണ്‍ കളിപ്പാട്ടങ്ങളായ ഞങ്ങള്‍ പ്രലോഭനങ്ങളുടെ തോരാമഴയത്ത് എങ്ങനെ പിടിച്ചു നില്ക്കും? പണ്ടു യേശുക്രിസ്തു കുരിശു ചുമക്കാന്‍ ഭൂമിയില്‍ അവതരിച്ചപ്പോള്‍ അങ്ങയെ വിളിച്ചു അപേക്ഷിച്ചത് അങ്ങോര്‍ക്കുന്നുവോ? കഴിയുമെങ്കില്‍ ഈ പാനപാത്രം എടുത്തു മാറ്റുമോ എന്ന് മനുഷ്യനായ ദൈവം അന്ന് പ്രാത്ഥിച്ചു. ശാരീരികമായ ആ വേദനകളെ താങ്ങാന്‍ അങ്ങയുടെ പുത്രന്‍ ഭയക്കുമ്പോള്‍ ഞങ്ങള്‍ ആ ദേഹത്തെ കാത്തുപാലിച്ചതും അതിനാല്‍ ദേഹിയെ നോവിപ്പിച്ചതും ഞങ്ങളുടെ ഉത്കണ്ഠ കൊണ്ടാണെന്നോര്‍ത്ത് അങ്ങ് ക്ഷമിക്കുകില്ലേ? പതിവ്രതയായ സീതയെ ഉപേക്ഷിക്കേണ്ടി വന്നപ്പോള്‍ ഭഗവാനായ രാമനും മനസ്സു നൊന്തില്ലേ? മാനസിക സമ്മര്‍ദ്ദങളുടെ അഗ്നിപരീക്ഷകളില്‍ ഈ ദുര്‍ബലരായ മാനവര്‍ അപ്പോള്‍ഉരുകിതീരില്ലേ? കൊടുന്കാറ്റിനെയും കടലിനെയും ശാസിച്ച അങ്ങ് ഞങ്ങളെ തകര്‍ത്ത ദുരാഗ്രഹങള്‍എന്തേ തകര്‍ത്തില്ല? കാളിയന്‍റെ മുകളില്‍ താണ്ഡവമാടിയ അങ്ങേക്ക് ഈ മനുഷ്യന്‍റെ ചെയ്തികളെ തടയാമായിരുന്നില്ലേ? അവിടുന്നെന്നെ എന്തിനീ ഭൂമിയില്‍ അയച്ചു എന്ന് ഞാന്‍ ഒരിക്കല്‍ പോലും ചിന്തിച്ചില്ല, അന്വേഷിക്കാന്‍ കൂട്ടാക്കിയില്ല. ഇനിയൊട്ടു ഒന്നും ചെയ്യാന്‍ നേരവുമില്ല. സമയം വളരെ വൈകിയിരിക്കുന്നു.ആ എരിയുന്ന നിത്യാഗ്നി അടുത്തെന്നതുപോലെ എന്‍റെ നെറ്റിയില്‍ വിയര്‍പ്പു തുള്ളികള്‍ വെപ്രാളപെട്ടു ഓടി ഇറങ്ങുന്നു . ഈ യാത്രയില്‍ ഞാന്‍ എല്ലാം നേടി .തിരിച്ചുപോവാന്‍ ഒരു സ്ഥലം ഒഴികെ. ഈ ജീവിതത്തില്‍ ഞാന്‍ എല്ലാം അറിഞ്ഞു . എന്‍റെ ആത്മാവിന്‍റെ പരമാനന്ദം ഒഴികെ. യാത്ര ചൊല്ലാന്‍ എനിക്കാവുന്നില്ല . ഞാന്‍ പോകുന്നതെവിടെയെന്നു ഞാനറിയുന്നില്ല .

My dear Woman...

This is not something about a woman that I like or one that I adore. Its about the wonderful race called Women. Its so wonderful to be one of them. I am not being unfair to the other equally important race here.Nor am i calling my race a superior one as i have no idea what other races feel like unless am one of them.  But it sure is enough to be the one that I am right now. I have read lot about how important the role of a woman in life is , how complex it is compared to a men's life , how intelligent and stupid some women were, how strong and weak they can be ..how nations were made n destroyed due to a woman..how a womans love changed people and empires..wow..doesnt all that sound incredible? To be part of such a happening race is really something that makes me proud. From the lullaby of a mother, the fights of a sister, the passion of a lover, the sacrifices and dedication of a wife to the advices of the old granny..each stage of our life we are thankful for a wonderful woman who made it possible to make our life worth. I often wondered if God made each new creation better and flawless than the first and in more resemblence to him ..if So, the woman was the last[acc to my belief in the holy bible]..the best of all creations..the partner of man who could support him when they failed and still stand strong..the helper of man when he lacked few skills.. What he lacked, he gave it to her..and yet he made her humble and loving to accept man and his superior nature. What a  wonderful theory to uplift your mood when you are let down by a man right?  

The beauty and power of women lies not in physical appearance or strength i believe as does  many intelligent wonderful people[really!!]. And those who failed to recognize that have tortured them in all ages, all over the world. The intelligent woman was often framed cunning, the beautiful as stupid and the server a slave. Its a pity to see that many still dont recognize the value of a woman. A girl child is still a pain somewhere, an unmarried lass a burden on home, a poor wife a slave of her hubby in some home and the old lady a bad curse to bear. Respect to woman was always considered the sign of  an esteemed personality. But i guess its all as good as a word written in water for some. Its sad to read the abundant amount of rapes, slaughters, tortures that go around us everyday.Only if everyone believed that the goddessess of ancient earth, the cleopatras, the princess diana or mother theresa ..all were once a  part of us...and still lives somewhere as one among us.. sigh!

Note: I agree that there are educated cultured people who respect women and I really appreciate them!

The Infected Bud!

I love kids. They are so cute and so full of fun. And cuteness is not the only factor which attracts me to kids. I like to play with them. Their imagination often astonishes me. The way they try to imitate something that fascinates them and their little cooked up stories about cartoons and chocolates are enough to cheer up anyone. Some are too smart and create a real dilemma for parents. I recently saw my cousin's kids .They were very playful and helpful[and taught me their new games] and I dont knw how soon I spent those 3hrs with them. The older one was about 3 years old and the younger abt a year and a half. During the dessert time after lunch, their appa [papa] tried to dissuade the elder one from having ice cream. He was telling her not to eat ice creams coz it was too cold and her throat would be affected and she'll have fever et all. The clever girl didnt pause for a second, but came up with a brilliant solution. "Heat the ice cream and give me then!" I was laughing hearing her innocent answer and proud face which had solved all the problems.

I was thinking when had I ever been so confident abt an answer and not worried what consequences a word of mine would bring. When did i lose that childish innocence and frank nature? And how long will it be before the kids who spoke n walked so freely felt the restraint to do so? How wonderful it would have been if people just grew up without having to be artificial in talks and actions? How different is the sincerity of a kid extending hand for friendship to someone of his age and a man extending a formal handshake to his new acquaintance? When those kids roll out on the floor laughing at their own little jokes and throw mud and balls at each other, the man checks on his new friend's background and throw stones of jealousy and pride at each other. When did that wonderful blooming bud lose its smile and roll inward to itself? And why did those buds shun from the light which strengthened them? Why did we ever turn away from the goodness in us and start withering out well ahead of what was planned for us? I do not have a definite answer. But sometimes I do think that without the world changing completely there is no hope for any born child to preserve his/her pure mind. If there are traitors , liers and thieves around , how do we teach children to trust and be honest? If innocence n frankness can cost you your life, then who would preach it to the ones they love? And if a decieving smile of friendship can lead a person to his ruins, how can we extend our hearts to those hands? And so,the buds which promised the springs for us will never blossom here ...they are infected from the dangerous soil in which they grow !!

Lovely Abstract Things!

Pic:Yosemite Falls, Dec 2008

I was trying to catch a rainbow. Well, they defnitely do exist.

But then why cant i just possess it. why are things so lovely so abstract? Was it meant by the creator that the most beautiful things mustnt be possessed ? When i was playing in the little creek near to my ancestral home, a beautiful wind came to me singing along with the leaves of the rubber, teak and other trees which surrounded me .It blew for just an instant and was gone.How i wanted to hold tht wind and do tht tickling to my face again. And then there was this wonderful smell when the first time rain fell on earth and gave the earth a beautiful aroma..It was so strange..so unique..i waited to smell again when the next rain came. But i didnt know it again till next year. If i could just store that unique smell which gave me a fresh feeling like old dusts were washed away and made me pure n radiant like those greeny leaves!! So , thats what God was thinking.It was not 

for me to keep getting all the good stuffs whenever i

wanted.. I had to go through droughts for a year to get the fresh smell of rain..and I had to experience the sun's heat between the cooling rains, to see a rainbow..And once i get the joy out of it, it will be taken away before i get used to it. Was man also abstract then? No. Definitely No. I could possess someone.I could always have him/her whenever i wished. Atleast tht was one lovely thing i could finally possess ,that i could feel, that i could love and keep with me for as long as i wished.Or, so i thought. Creator's rule doesnt change here too i guess. I had barely known him .Its been 10 years . But every single day i was only learning to possess him through all these years. Through roses and thorns in our life, through the entangled strings of his passions in life..i was just starting to know him completely and possess that great heart with all its beauty and burns when it was suddenly taken away from me. That was the moment i despised all lovely things . They are lovely but they are abstract, they will leave me and mock at my burning desire to own them..Only the creator owns everything lovely..and no one else does...and its just a glimpse we get of his heavenly world through this short-lived abstract beautiful things!! Thats my belief..Thats my Hope!

Philosophically me!!

Like an earthen vessel i stay in this heavy rains of life! At times i dissolve in it and lose myself in its beauty..and at times the rains shatter me with its harsh showers..but someone always takes me back from the earth and puts me in a fire i think i can never withstand..but which only makes me stronger and myself as whole again..!!

 

I am your wings. Though you cannot see me I will always be there by your side .I will hold u from falling down when u face heat and storms and will take you to your destination where your hopes and dreams lie!

I was a candle, one among millions. It was u who picked me out of the millions and lighted me up. I started burning out my life for u from then. I made u happier by melting out more and more and  making myself brighter for u. I was the only companion for u in the darkness of ur loving heart and in the loneliness of ur gloomy world. I loved u so much that I made stars ur friends who would light up ur dark nights when I wasn’t there. But once u left me alone to see the world illuminated with the fake smiles of bulbs ,fluorescent lamps and lasers. U were lost in the mesmerizing effect of their appealing look that u forgot the stars who came for u those nights. They blinked their thousand eyes  at u  but ur eyes were filled with the artificial smiles of the dancing  illuminations and u never saw them. I waited for  u day and night without knowing that I lost the value in ur life. My heart was melting out  with love for u  but u were busy with ur new companions who made ur nights days and drained your light out of you. You never remembered the sincerity that I showed, to guide you in darkness without expecting anything from u, from when u possessed me. Now ,realizing that am useless in brightening ur life and making u happy  and knowing that my life ,my love, which I wished to burn out for u is valueless, am going back as one among the millions , waiting to melt out for someone who needs me.